hmm
well i got dumped on monday night, and its currently friday. tuesday i was too depressed to move so i didnt go to school. i loved kevin. what went wrong? why would he just throw away what we had? he was perfect for me. he was a drummer, surfere, nice, gentleman, and he loved drumcorps. he supported me through a lot and knows alot about me. the reason he broke up with me ? he says that he has changed since he graudated high school. and his feelings have changed. i love him and would do anything for him and even though we didnt go out much i was so happy with him. he was like my best friend.
but now i feel nothing… i feel like bella actually… just not that depressing and stuff… i don’t konw what to do i loved the guy and i want to be with him but he ended it…i don’t konw if i should wait… i am taking everything day by day and i just want to skip this pain and i want it to be ok again. because everytime i feel happy like truly happy something says” oh katie is happy again better ruin it” and thats what happened. he was the only guy to like me in a very long time. now i feel ugly, lonely, lame and ijust want to feel what i felt with him again
being at the theatre,
Last night at the theatre for big, loud, and live 8 was amazing. I felt like a geek going to a drumcorps show. But that is my absolute favorite thing to do out of everything is go to drumcorps shows. When it started i was somewhat what they call fan-girling? During the first about 6 corps i was utterly sad it made me sick. Its not that i was sad about the corps performance it was the fact that i am not there performing. I utterly regret not marching a corps that did a full tour this summer. I want to be in the humidity and get sunburns. I want to pull up to Lucas Oil Stadium and think “wow her i am again, how i have missed thee…”
I have said this before but in 09 i remember watching an absolutely amazing BD show and just thinking….”These people are amazing, i wish i had a chance to be in drumcorps but there is no way i will ever in a million years be good enough..” I mean those drumlines were amazing. But a year later, there i am pulling up to Lucas Oil Stadium eager to perform and warm up even at like some early time in the morning. As it came into sight i was just thinking ” Wow a year ago i was watching this Stadium from the theatres and here i am going to perform…. LETS DO THIS!”
I can’t express how i am feeling now but everytime i think of drumcorps my heart just go rapidly. I am eager i want to march. i want to be there performing to be in the AC Stadium and complain about how hot it is when leaving the tunnel! I want to wear a Blue Devils B uniform (because next i want to be there) and have some high schoolers ask me ”Are you with BD B?” “WOW! I AM A FAN I LOVED THE SHOW!” ”Is it okay if i could take a picture with you?” That is my ultimate dream is to have someone be actually inspired by my performance, and what to be able to do what i did :D
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dear cali ladies,
i know my brother is hot and he is sweet. He has a southern accent that you will fall for. He is also a marine. But i swear if one of you stuck up bitches try for him i will make your life a living hell. He deserves the utmost sweetest, caring, nice, and deserving person who won’t be a gold digger.
thanks sincerely
his little sister,
Katherine (katie) T
Day 4 things that mean something to me
This is probably the thing that means the most to me besides my friends, boyfriend, and my family…and this is Drumcorps. DCI is the best thing that has ever happend to me in years. In 09 i remember wataching my sisters boyfriend on the big screen and saying “i will never be able to see this live or be in a drumcorps drumline” and the next year 2010 i was sitting on the bus pulling up and seeing “Lucas Oil Stadium” all i could think is ” whoa a year ago i was in a theatre with my mom thinking i would never be able to be here then here i am” I learned a lot in drumcorps. It has always been my dream to have some kid come up to me and be like are you in this corps…..thats my favorite one…..could i possibly take a picture with you? Seriously this summer has been the hardest not being out there. Thats why next year i will be there no matter what it takes because i want to be on that field again. You have no idea how it feels to have people care so much for a show and put their ENTIRE being out on the field to perform that show. Its mind blowing to even set foot and march in Lucas Oil. I love drumcorps very much and i always will
day 3 things that mean something to me
this is antonio and he means a great deal to me. HE is like my best friend, brother, cousin and just like everything. he will be home a day before kevin :} he works at disneyland and is in Academy Drum and Bugle Corps. He has always been there for me and i couldn’t have asked for a better friend. :3 love ya man
This is “The Captain” but i will forever only call him nick. He was one of the first people i connected with at Vk. Whenever i was upset of frustrated i wuold go to nick at lunch and tell him about it. I did this on tour too. He is a great guy and an amazing friend. He cam to see my championships at his high school that he teaches at and that made me really happy :3 This guy is an amazing person and an amazing friend. He is currently tired though i know that becuase he has been on tour for like 3 months and thankfully this is hi s last week so he gets to go home
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day 2 things that mean something to me :3
Day 2 the thing that means most to me is this landyard :D it was given to me by my favorite Madison Scout, Aaron. He marched Madison Scouts 2010 contra line, 2009 Carolina Crown, and 2008 Bluecoats. He met my boyfriend Kevin through the U.S. Army All-American Marching Band. Kevin told me about him and then i added him and started talking to him. He didn’t seem so nice at first and i was okay with that. Then out of the blue we started talking again and we got really close. He asked me to be his little sister and he then sent me this a couple weeks later. I am kinda sad because he is away in the Marines but i will be able to talk to him whenever i want in about 9 to 10 weeks. But since he has been gone i miss my older bro and i am hoping he is getting stationed in cali. I want to be able to take him to DIsneyland. I love you Bro. I can’t wait until i get your next letter…. i wear this as much as possible to support you 
love you bro from your little sister Katie :D <3
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for the next couple days i will post something that means something to me
today i am starting with my best friend Daniel C. :D
This was the very first day we met :3 July 16th 2011. Honesty time i was afraid to video chat with him the very first time because i literally thought he would be like “Eww she is ugly, loser, and i don’t want to talk to her.” Obviously he didn’t say this to me. the first day we talked like the entire day and it built from there. We like a lot of the same things. HE knows alot about me and i am still trying to get things out of him but thats okay. Before he left on tour he gave me this braclet :] i wear it everyday…
it lets me know he is will me everday and i gave him a braclet to remind him of me when he is on tour. So when he is stressed after everyday he can look down at my braclet and be like hey i can always talk to my best friend because she is there for me. lol i also totally asked him to be my best friend like this…
so i will be there for him whenever he needs me as long as he will be there for me. Best friend i hope you win tomorrow have a great day and i can’t wait to video chat again when you get home. Miss ya and love ya best frann
from your best friend Katie :D
frustrated
i want to cry…i can’t handle this time difference or this bullshit no talking before 9pm rule. its really bugging me. i miss him so much :’[ everytime he calls me he is breathing heavy which means he is really sleepy and about to go to sleep. it makes me so sad because i miss talking, laughing, and him making me feel like he isnt about 1000 miles away…. ugh he is almost home and its driving me crazy
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